I finally had my first day volunteering at the library yesterday! And I'm so excited! I loved it sooo much! I mostly did shelving, specifically in fiction so I don't have to deal with the Dewey Decimal System yet. I think I'm really going to enjoy this. Oh, and get this! If I'm still volunteering in August (which I obviously will be), they're going to have professional story-tellers come and perform for the volunteers! Score for me!
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Monday, March 18, 2013
An Explanation
I feel like I owe my readers an explanation. I guess I feel like I haven't said much about the suicide last week, and that it might feel like I had moved on too quickly. I thought I would explain myself.
You see, one part of it is that I feel that when something of that magnitude happens, I should tell people just so they know what's going on, why I'm acting the way I am. And I also think I need that kind of support. At that point, I need people to know. However, eventually I reach a point where I also just need to mourn on my own terms. I don't really want to talk to people about it anymore, I just want to deal with it myself.
Another reason I haven't mentioned it much lately is that the best way for me to deal with grief is to leave it at the graveside. I will never forget my friend, or the pain, or the questions, but I know that eventually, life needs to go on. I let myself mourn as much as I need, but by the time the graveside service is held, I know it's time to move on and let my life continue.
I know this probably wasn't necessary, but I felt like it needed to be said. Maybe I just needed a bit of closure. Thanks for listening!
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
You see, one part of it is that I feel that when something of that magnitude happens, I should tell people just so they know what's going on, why I'm acting the way I am. And I also think I need that kind of support. At that point, I need people to know. However, eventually I reach a point where I also just need to mourn on my own terms. I don't really want to talk to people about it anymore, I just want to deal with it myself.
Another reason I haven't mentioned it much lately is that the best way for me to deal with grief is to leave it at the graveside. I will never forget my friend, or the pain, or the questions, but I know that eventually, life needs to go on. I let myself mourn as much as I need, but by the time the graveside service is held, I know it's time to move on and let my life continue.
I know this probably wasn't necessary, but I felt like it needed to be said. Maybe I just needed a bit of closure. Thanks for listening!
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Faceplant
Wow, sorry it's been so long, this has been one of my more hectic weeks. I think school is a very selfish creature who wants all the students' time to himself. In any case I apologize for the wait.
Another reason I didn't post last night at least, however, is that I was doorbell-ditching cookies! See, Mia wanted to give cookies to a couple friends who were having a hard time, so yesterday we (meaning me, Mia, Kay, and Jake), all got into Kay's car, plugged the address into her GPS, and headed off to spread the joy of cookies!
It was... interesting. They live fairly far away, hence the GPS, and said GPS likes to take any route that will get her near the freeway. Strange machine. In any case, when we finally found the right house, we realized with some trepidation that there were no cars in their driveway, they were at the end of the street, and there was nothing to hide behind. In addition, we knew that if they saw the car, they would recognize us and call us out, so we had to park rather far away. However, we solved this by deciding to hide at the side of the house, then booking it for the car when they went back inside/started chasing us. Mia and Kay being the fastest runners, they were volunteered to put the cookies on the porch and ring the bell. Jake and I waited in hiding.
It was dark, and a little cold, where we waited. Soon, we heard the footsteps in the grass that meant Kay and Mia were coming back. We waited with baited breath, listening for the sound of the door opening... nothing. Perturbed, Kay and Mia crept back to check it out. A few seconds later, they crept back to us and gestured to run for the car.
Off we took across the grass, terrified of being caught. I was in the back, looking for the first sight of Kay's car, when suddenly...
Faceplant.
Turns out ballet flats aren't great for running in. You'd think I would have figured that out sooner.
My foot slipped on the cool grass, and I fell face-first. I didn't actually hit my face, but it was close enough. ;)
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
Another reason I didn't post last night at least, however, is that I was doorbell-ditching cookies! See, Mia wanted to give cookies to a couple friends who were having a hard time, so yesterday we (meaning me, Mia, Kay, and Jake), all got into Kay's car, plugged the address into her GPS, and headed off to spread the joy of cookies!
It was... interesting. They live fairly far away, hence the GPS, and said GPS likes to take any route that will get her near the freeway. Strange machine. In any case, when we finally found the right house, we realized with some trepidation that there were no cars in their driveway, they were at the end of the street, and there was nothing to hide behind. In addition, we knew that if they saw the car, they would recognize us and call us out, so we had to park rather far away. However, we solved this by deciding to hide at the side of the house, then booking it for the car when they went back inside/started chasing us. Mia and Kay being the fastest runners, they were volunteered to put the cookies on the porch and ring the bell. Jake and I waited in hiding.
It was dark, and a little cold, where we waited. Soon, we heard the footsteps in the grass that meant Kay and Mia were coming back. We waited with baited breath, listening for the sound of the door opening... nothing. Perturbed, Kay and Mia crept back to check it out. A few seconds later, they crept back to us and gestured to run for the car.
Off we took across the grass, terrified of being caught. I was in the back, looking for the first sight of Kay's car, when suddenly...
Faceplant.
Turns out ballet flats aren't great for running in. You'd think I would have figured that out sooner.
My foot slipped on the cool grass, and I fell face-first. I didn't actually hit my face, but it was close enough. ;)
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
Thursday, March 14, 2013
My Dreams...
... are getting really bizarre. Last night I dreamed I was in my campus bookstore, looking at these absolutely adorable dresses they have there (Mikarose, I love their designs to pieces!), when I ran into Jethro (as played by Colin Morgan on the Doctor Who episode "Midnight"). We talked, and thirty seconds later, we were going to get married. Not that it was because of any mutual attraction on our parts, it felt more like an arranged marriage than anything. We were getting married that day, and for some reason we were having the reception before the wedding. And then I ran into one of Morgan's other roles (not Merlin), and he and Jethro were having issues... something about fighting over me or something... and then my high school crush showed up at the reception, and I felt guilty (though I don't know why, the guy never had any feelings for me), and then half an hour before the actual wedding, the kid (who by now was completely different) and I decided that we didn't love each other, and this just wasn't going to work, so we called the wedding off...
And I woke up.
This is starting to get a little out of hand.
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
And I woke up.
This is starting to get a little out of hand.
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Hyper
Apparently I'm scary when I'm hyper. Or so I've been told by my family today. ;) But it's not my fault if I am running on a lack of sleep, feeling productive, and enjoying one of the first warm days we've had in MONTHS!
See, I got so much done at school today, and then I finally finished up most of the business for me to volunteer at the public library (which is gonna be SO MUCH FUN!), and then I got a lot done at work, and I haven't been sleeping well lately (alarm clock mix-ups and such), and it's finally sunny outside, and it just feels so good to be happy after that absolutely horrendous weekend...
It's just all adding up. And when you throw a couple mint M&Ms into the mix, life just gets fun!
Who needs caffeine to get hyper?
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
See, I got so much done at school today, and then I finally finished up most of the business for me to volunteer at the public library (which is gonna be SO MUCH FUN!), and then I got a lot done at work, and I haven't been sleeping well lately (alarm clock mix-ups and such), and it's finally sunny outside, and it just feels so good to be happy after that absolutely horrendous weekend...
It's just all adding up. And when you throw a couple mint M&Ms into the mix, life just gets fun!
Who needs caffeine to get hyper?
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Thank You
Thank you all so much for your support. I'm sorry I haven't written much these past few days, but it's hard to write when there's something so heavy on your mind. I just wanted to say thanks for supporting me and my family and friends during this rough time. Hopefully I'll be posting regularly again.
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
Fare thee well, friend!
Mira
Saturday, March 9, 2013
We Miss You
'Kay, I'll try to write this without crying.
Yesterday, I found out a friend of mine committed suicide. I didn't see it coming, at all. He was always so happy and goofy. I can't understand why he would want to end a life that was so full of promise. I just wish he'd come to us. We all would have been there for him. But that's why I missed posting yesterday.
The one good thing that came out of the day was that those of us who knew him grew closer together. We were there for each other, and we all knew we cared. I just wish he'd known that, if he had told us, we could have done the same for him.
I truly hope you're happy where you are, and that you're more at peace than you were in this life. For those of you reading, please know that no matter how it seems, there is always someone who cares about you and will cry when you leave. Don't let them feel the pain of knowing you chose to leave them early. There will always be someone who cares, willing to help. Let them. It will save so many so much pain.
We miss you.
Fare thee well, my wonderful, wonderful friend.
Mira
Yesterday, I found out a friend of mine committed suicide. I didn't see it coming, at all. He was always so happy and goofy. I can't understand why he would want to end a life that was so full of promise. I just wish he'd come to us. We all would have been there for him. But that's why I missed posting yesterday.
The one good thing that came out of the day was that those of us who knew him grew closer together. We were there for each other, and we all knew we cared. I just wish he'd known that, if he had told us, we could have done the same for him.
I truly hope you're happy where you are, and that you're more at peace than you were in this life. For those of you reading, please know that no matter how it seems, there is always someone who cares about you and will cry when you leave. Don't let them feel the pain of knowing you chose to leave them early. There will always be someone who cares, willing to help. Let them. It will save so many so much pain.
We miss you.
Fare thee well, my wonderful, wonderful friend.
Mira
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